A thousands of why?

I want to talk to him.

Why must i neglect him because of you.

I don't understand.

Why am i forcing myself to do these.

Why each time when i get a nice friend to talk to, i will lost it eventually.

Why is the fact being so cruel?

Next monday

Didn't realize that school is re-opening on next Monday until my brother told me just now.

=.= Still blur case. (damn fast)

Books not yet buy. (I believe most of them are same as me. LOL)

Had made up my mind to take science + account.

See how 1st. Maybe will change my mind after the 1st week of orientation.

Exhausted today. =\

=)

看见你这样，我也很心痛。
不过，咳。。。
算啦，反正我也不算是什么。=)

23rd December 2010

(Currently at Angela's house. Overnight.)

Today was a big day for me.

Finally the result is out.

Once i reached hall saw Lava was tearing and hugging Meera.

For sure, she straight As. LOL.

Soon, it's my turn.

Quite nervous. Teacher asked me to sign 1st.

Then she ask me how many As i want.

I say 7. Then she say: Baik. Cikgu bagi Kim Ling 7A.

Then i looked at my result slip at shouted like mad for 10 seconds on the chair.

Hahahaha.

Unfortunately, some of my friends who took 8 subjects only get 7As.

Feel happy for them too. But they don't seems so happy. LOL

Then went parade after the photography session.

Need to buy a lot of stuffs. =(

Saw Choon Yee at Sky Mex. He told me he 7A then he said want to go to top floor jump building wor. Hahahahahaha XD

Then later on saw Winnie. Hahaha.

Eh. I forget her hair colour today is black or brown. LOL!

Then, my phone suddenly rang.

A phone call from Nicholous.

Feel surprised. LOL. He asked me how many A.

After that, went for my lunch at foodcourt. Or should i say breakfast. LOL

Most of my friends are going for a movie.

Actually i want too. =( Too bad i don't have enough time.

Then wander around in Parade.

Went back at 2pm. Go angela's house.

At night singing competition at Taiping. Today final.

Today sang a new song, maybe because today 1st time sing this song,

i was freaking nervous.

Whole song out of tune. =P

Hahahaha. Doesn't matter. Still got RM50 as prize.

Then went back at around 12am.

That's all for today.

Thanks for reading. =D

Picture 1

Picture 2

Stupid KiMLiNG

Stupid pictures =D

Random Random Random.........................

Was too boring.

2 random pictures. Hahahaha!

Call me Crazy XD

EEEEEEE~

AAAAAAAA~

17th December 2010

Kinda boring these few days.

Sigh.

Eat, Sleep, Online.

Arh!!!

Someone please rescue me form this hell~

Johor

Inside the bus

(i like this picture XD)

Toilet

Today my grandma gave me this.

I feel so surprised.

Love you grandma <3

=)

Reached Johor in this evening.

Just like what i've thought earlier, BORING.

Not even have enough computer to use. LOL

Luckily there's 0.facebook.com if not i would have die a century ago.

But still, using laptop is obviously better than using a phone to online ==

Get to use the laptop at 10.30pm. ==|||

Okay. Time to introduce someone. LMAO

Chatted with Kent Lee Woi Qin (hopefully didnt spell wrong).

Hahahahah. Ex tuition mate.

Knew him since standard 4. =D

He seems so different. Changed. LOL

Last time he was cool. Hahaha.

Yesterday chatted with him also.

Just now webcam with him too.

He said i still look same. What the hell. LOL

But he looks more mature. Other word (older) hahaha

Main point comes:

My mum passed by and saw me chatting with someone.

She asked: who's that?

I said: a friend

She asked: boy ah?

I said: knew since primary.

Then later on she saw his face.

She asked: your primary school got boy one meh?

I answered: I said i knew him since primary, not at my primary school.LOL

Then she started mumbling

Asking how i know him, where he lives, study good or not. Sigh

This is what we called 'parents' haha

And i realized something on myself.

Nowadays i become more talkative and friendly.

I don't know whether it is a good thing for me or not.

But seems like it becomes part of my habits. LOL

i miss him...but i tell myself i shouldn't =(

Edited

Changed new background and new music.

Any comment?

Johor

5 days to Johor.

Sigh. =(

Red Eye

I rubbed my eye and it goes red. =.=

For two days

This reminds me of the movie 'Child's eye'

Haha. Though i did not watch that movie.

Cincai la. Also 'eye' LMAO

Journey

15th-19th
Johor Bahru (hometown)
Maybe going Singapore too. (boring =.=)

22th
Taiping (singing competition)

25th
Kuala Lumpur (singing competition)

Today was fine =)
A little boring =\

Today's schedule:

11am --woke up
12.30pm --lunch
1pm-3.30pm --tuition (should be 2.30pm)
damn that teacher make me stayback =.=
4pm --online,play games, chores.
6.45pm --shower
7.30pm --go neighbour's birthday party
10.15pm --back home
online until now.

K BOX KIDDIE K QUEST (K ZAI K LUI) FINAL

Date: 7th December 2010 (Tuesday)

Venue: Ipoh Parade Main Stage

Time: 1pm - 4pm.

Feel free to come =)

I'm contestant 14th.

New nickname.

My new nickname.

EVIEE

Holidays' life

Schedule fulled.

Tired.

Boring.

Holidays' life

Schedule fulled.

Tired.

Boring.

K BOX KIDDIE K QUEST TOP 30 PROMO TOUR

Tomorrow promo tour at SJKC Bercham =)
Do come and support =D
10am.

Edited several pictures.
These pictures are extras which i did not put on facebook.


Reflection

Result of over-editing. XD
Does it looks emo?
(Though the main purpose of capturing this is not for emo)
LOL

Gonna busy these few days.
Starting from 20th - 28th November.
I miss him =)
Just a friend.

In a fucking bad mood.
Just feeling to burst foul words.

Annoying.
Fuck Off please.

Copied from Amelia

Just now saw a post posted by Amelia.
I am freaking agree with what she said:

please . don't go around telling people about those private problems to your friends. it's not your fucking problem. it's someone's problem. what's wrong with you. sharing it to your friends and strangers. sounds very cool huh? no it's not. try to think what if people go around and spread your stupid idiotic problems t...o people. wtf will u feel.

Enrollment 2010

Did not sleep last night.
Stay up until 4.15am
Then winnie's mum came and fetch me.

Was in a worse condition during team test performance.
I don't know what the hell was wrong with me.
Speak wrong.
And i was gasping for oxygen like hell. LOL
To make myself chill, i tried to smile.

P/S:The performance was still going on.

So it becomes :
I was smiling when i calling for AMBULANS from the hospital! LOL



Okay, let's not talk about the enrollment
Now gathering...

I was in charge of one of the stations in the station games
Everyone was breaking my rules. T-T
I was like : WHAT THE HELL!! STOP CHEATING!!
Especially the Kong Kah U and Ngai Hon Meng
=,=

2 more days to go....
This Friday class party
After that maybe going for Add Maths tuition....

Tired

So many stuffs to manage.
Hope i can rest throughout one day.
=(

Same as last year =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN HUAI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIN WAI

=D

Today, is a good day...
I smiled a lot...=D

2nd Day

Talent show.
I love Lasheni's dance. LOL

1st November

Today was the 1st day of our school co-curriculum day.
Had some games competition.
I took part in Netball and Futsal.
I bear feet while playing netball. LOL
Get stepped. Quite pain.
But the floor is slippery.
I fell down 3 times when i wore my shoes.
(hahaha) =,=

我不会再烦你，也请你别骚扰我。

Hate backstabbing.

I really hate backstabbing.
I don't mind if you tell me my weakness in front of me.
But please, i beg you guys.
Don't backstab me.
1st, it hurts.
2nd, it means you hide something from me.
3rd, it makes our relation worse.
4th, it ruins people image.

I seriously don't mind if you rectify in front of me.
I will thank you, for telling me my weakness.
But NOT backstabbing please.

Online? Nothing else i can do...
Facebook, Blogger, Facebook, Blogger.

18th October 2010

Today i went to work at my old work place.
Reserving my brother, who can't attend.
And my left hand thumb get injured ='(
*Sigh~

external

internal

谢谢 =)

三年前的我 - 独自一人，很少参朋友

两年前的我 - 开始认识朋友，那时我的脸上豪无表情，不懂得笑是什么。认识的都会问：为什么你不会笑？

去年的我 - 朋友也越来越多，但是还是一样的冷酷，忽略别人。有些人甚至不敢跟我讲话。

今年的我 - 虽然朋友少了，但我开始学习如何去笑，变得乐观。

今天的我 - 已经改了很多。从一个以前写信息不超过四个字的人，变成今天努力去交谈的我。

这些，都要谢谢我的朋友们。是他们改变了我。

How many posts you read on my blog.

1 people - 1>>>50

4 people - Read All.

Is it true about the asnswer?
LOL.
Can't believe.

Plan Plan Plan

Boring Boring Boring.
Any plan?
Suggest at my chatbox =)

XDDDD

Awww....
I want to study!!!
Hahahaha....XDDDDDDD

Spirit-less

Sigh.
I find out that, i have no spirit to strive after PMR.
As if there's no target for me to strive for.
What should i do next? Sigh =(
I don't want to be like others.
*Play play play.
I really don't have that mood to play or relax.
Perhaps i'm way too serious??
Some please rescue me from this heavy burden.
Things are always endless.....

Regret.

我很后悔认识你。。。
你把我的一切都搞砸了。。。

10th October.

Finally it ended. Muahahaha =D
I'm so HAPPY.
NOT because of i get to enter TOP 10.
It's because of i finally can relax myself.
Phew~ XD
OK. THE RESULT IS.....
I'M OUTED. =)

Tomorrow still got exam.
Bye =)

Rehearsal

Just now went for rehearsal at Ipoh Parade.
Saw many pretty girls. Damn stress. LOL
All also top 15.
Luckily i'm not the shortest. Haha XD
I'm # 3. ='( Damn early.

Anyway, hope you guys will come and support me on this Sunday.
=)

Unexpected!

Today i checked my geography and history marks.
Geography 50/60. History 52/60.
LOL. I scored A! Hahahaha.
I got B for this 2 subjects during TRIAL.
How happy am i...XD
But can't be too happy yet.
Next monday still got one more challenge.
Maths and Perdagangan.
Maths no worry. But PD,
I got C for TRIAL.
Can i get an A for PMR? =(

=)

Last night i slept around 11pm.
Quite early. LOL.
Not feeling to study much.
During TRIAL, i even burn the midnght oil to study for every subject.
But, PMR .....
LOL. I don't know. I felt too boring to study.
But i want to score full A's. LOL.
Today's exam quite easy.
Especially English. Haha =)
Then geografi is still ok.
Though i'm not really good in it.
But i think i got 70 something which they say is already A.
Tomorrow is Science and History.=)
Science is still ok. But history, i had never scored an A on it.
This time will i?
Last time i used to dislike this subject.
But i don't know since when i started to like it. XD
That's all for today.
Bye =) Thanks for reading my blog.

PMR

Oh, yeah....Hello =)
Today is the first day of PMR and i'm here onlining.
As if i'm not taking part in the exam. LOL.
I don't know. I need to diminish my STRESS
STRESS STRESS STRESS....
Argh~!!
Bye Bye. =

New.

Edited a new photo using a just-installed software.
Photoscape.
Hmm...this software not bad la =)
Changed a new background and blog picture.
*Comments =D

How is this? =)

11

Hari ini, saya 'blog' ada 11 'followers'.

Performance for the particular day.

Finally i made up my mind about the performance on 10th October.
Singing + Dancing. It's common.
Among the 15 contetants,
there are at least 3 of them are performing the same talent.
Have to practise hard.
I thought about performing Taekwondo, which i'm good in it.
But it needs a team. Where should i get these people?
Since i was absenting class for 3 months.

Now i have to practise that freaking dance everyday.
Have to study every day. (PMR left 9 days)
And tomorrow Computer Assessment.
Argh~~!
Why must everything crash together?
Why the timing is so NICE?
Ish....

What can i do?
I feel so despair.

Sin Chew Daily Carnival

Sin Chew Daily Carnival

"Shining Girls"

Date: 10th October 2010
Time: Afternoon
Venue: Ipoh Parade Main Stage.

Friends, feel free to come and support me =)
Thank you.

Hari Raya

This afternoon went my master house for my taekwondo club's rumah terbuka.
Aww~I miss him so much XD
He's so funny. LOL. He pasted a notice there.
"Dilarang merokok. Denda duit raya RM5"
1st time see this kind of notice. XD
At 1st, I thought can see many of my friends and seniors.
But i just saw one. ='(
Nevermind. It's ok. =D

I do eat a LOT. Hehehe. =P
And i get RM5 duit raya. ^^
Maybe gonna start back my training after PMR.
That's great! It's been 2 months since i stopped my training.
Sure get fat already. =D
That's all for today.

Farewell

Suddenly, i feeling to sing on this saturday =D
There you'll be - Faith Hill =)

New talent

Sing sing sing =D

Sorry

Sorry. I've brought up a lot of problems.
I'm useless.

Just let it be natural

Actually, you don't need to treat me in this way.

Freaking worse.
Out of tune. ='(

Aiya....
Don't know what to say.
Not everything also can put on blog and share out.
Sigh~

This way or that way?

I feel so frustrated, suffocating and inconsolable.
I do not know how to solve my problems.
Feeling to give up my life

On the other hand,

I'm ignoring everythings, thinked about the future and giving myself hopes.
I want to be success too.
Feeling to move on with that.

Which way should i take?
I bear majority will say the second one...

Freaking mad.

Hmm...
Today was a wonderful day =D


Before recess >>> chat chat chat

After recess >>> sleep sleep sleep (until dismiss)

After dismiss >>> eat eat eat

After boarding my bus >>> talk talk talk

After went home >>> sleep sleep sleep

After wake up >>> facebook facebook facebook

After online >>> Oops...sorry. Not yet finish online. XD


And ya, today i got my results.
It shows that my position is #12th in my class. XD
But i might change to 13th ='(

Hatred

I just realize that, this is my 300th post. LOL

Lets recall back something. =)

Why do i start writing blog?

Because of one of my exs.

He had a blog, and i found it interesting.

So i have made up my mind to start making a blog too =)

But we are so strange now =(

And he seems dislike me.

Whatever.

Coincidently, i had fall deeply on his best friend.

And yet ended up with NOTHING.

Just like his friend, we do become strangers =(

But i still love him thus making me suffering.

Anyway, i am forcing myself to forget him =)

Oh~ Ya...

Just now edited a new photo.

How is it?

(Hatred)

I, dislike you.

Don't Think It ANYMORE!
KiM LiNG! CHEER UP!

Finally

Finally, i have put down on you.
But i know i might be 'flower heart' after this. LOL

Trial >>>

Maths - 94 A
Science - 83 A
BM - 80 A
BI- 80 A
Geografi - 70 B
Sejarah - 68 B
KH - 62 C

Forget love

If i could have a chance to wash my memory,
I wish I can forget all about love.

Observation from acne

Vivian: Koh, your acnes more than mine.
Me: Ya lo.
Jo Anne: My sister said, people with too many stress will like that.
Me: ==? Huh? Ya meh...?

Broken Promise

Once, you used to said: "I scare i'll lose you"
And i promised: "I won't leave you. =)"
But now, you're the one who ruined the promise...
Sigh. Is everyone the same?

Disappeared phone.

My phone disappeared...
After i take nap, my phone STILL THERE...
I went to wash my face...
Went downstairs do some stuffs...
And what so ever....

After all these things settled, I went back to my room
I packed some stuffs (rubbish)...
Then, I realize my phone missing~
I'm sure i did not pack it into the rubbish category....
I try to phone my number....
Unfortunately, i put on silent mode...==
But, i can still hear the sound of vibration...
It comes from my mum's room's drawer...
And it's locked

I ask her for the drawer's key,
she says: no key ah, impossible inside la...you go bath first...
Ya, i feel that too...
How come inside my room will suddenly goes into her drawer?

OK, after i bath...i phone my number again...
THIS TIME: THE NUMBER YOU HAVE DIALED, IS NOT AVAILABLE AT THE MOMENT. PLEASE TRY AGAIN LATER.
Oh My Gosh~ What The Fuck? == Fine

After tuition, i try to phone again...
The same sentences appear...
MY PHONE DISAPPEARED~
( i suspect my mum)

Pictures

The most natural, without any thing on my face =)

(This picture 'hak sei yan' LOL)

Yesterday went Oscar Studio to take photos...
It's a wedding package..
Why i suddenly go take?
'Cause got one aunty introduce and say that package got offer now...
At the same time, i take the opportunity to capture some photos for me to submit for a competition organized by Shin Jew Newpaper...
The make up is like...WTF...
Freaking thick...(but can cover my acne)
i like the make up...Quite nice...(but too thick)
This thingy takes me 5 hours ++ until i skipped my tuition class...

Before making up...

How is it?

Different

I have no idea what i'm tryng to do these few days...
The one should be studying is not studying...
I'm doing things that are exrtraordinary...
3 more days to trial but i'm here onlining in the middle of the night...
Instead, others are burning the midnight oil...

Somehow, i feel hopeless...
No more energy to survive...
I admit, i became weak...
Don't know since when...
Last time i'm tough...
I'll never tears...
Even if i did, this situation normally just maintain for 10 seconds and below.
But nowadays i can cry for more than an hour...
(Wow, that's so different...LOL)
Sometimes i wish i could suicide.

But in the other hand, i want to success..
I don't want to let people look down on me...
(This is my attitude)
I want everything about me to be perfect...
I try to study hard...
But i can't...
Sometimes i'm looking at the book but things that appear in my mind are totally different and not related to the book...LOL
Could i score flying colours?
No.

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Annoyance

i thought you are, but you're not...
you think i am, but i'm not...
you don't know me...
i don't know you...
in a nut shell, strangers...

(don't ask me what i mean, i don't know)

Mum locked computer...
Less on blogging...

yesterday i took the ICAS paper...
It was extremely difficult....
i 'shooted' around half of the questions...
*note : there's 60 questions...
i'm going to get a D grade....LOL

nothing much to blog...
Trial is coming...
TRIAL = PMR
Actually there's no difference...
When you take trial, as if you're taking PMR too...
(this is my own view)

tomorrow stay back at wisma...
count money...LOL
NEVER LOSE to youth 7...

i just had a freaking nice DINNER at 11pm...
nasi lemak + fry egg+ hot milo...
LOL...it is exactly a BREAKFAST set!
i have no idea whether i'm having dinner or breakfast...
LOL...


tomorrow performing dance for Hari Anugerah...
’Fusion Dance' with my friends...
the costume is like...OMG...

activities that i'm going to attend:

17th July - Hari Anugerah (performance)
18th July - Ipoh International Run (duty)
20th July - ICAS (International Competitions and Assessments for Schools)

2nd August - PMR trial

September - Farewell + Enrollment test

October - PMR

somehow, i wish everything could back to the past...

but, day dreaming is USELESS!

i should work hard for now and future...

conversation between me and my mum...

she: why you always dropped?
me: everyone also dropped...
she: you always find reason...always say EVERYONE ALSO EVERYONE ALSO...why don't you say yourself?
me: oh~
she: how can you like this? you should work hard...
me: en~
she: you see you tuition what? tuition until results dropped...
me: oh~
she: you can't always rely on tuition...
me: yes~
she: if no tuition, then you'll die lo?
me: oh~
she: those people who don't have tuition no need get A lo?
me: en~
she: i don't know why nowadays you'll become like this...
me: oh~
she: if you say everyone dropped, then why people can score better than you?
me: because they're clever...
she: why can't you be clever?
me: ==...
she: (bla bla bla)
me: oh
she: (bla bla bla)
me: en~

to be continued....

watched karate kid...
muahaha...
Oh My God...
i love Dre! LOL
he's so awesome....
perhaps one day i can fight like him...
*Laugh My Ass Off

i did not sleep last night....
was doing slides show for my science presentation....
"the death of stars"
not bad not bad...XD
hopefully my presentation will be success...


my mum asked me to beg my dad so that he will change his mind and let us stay...
i don't know what should i do...haiz

my mum said, if we manage to get a job with my salary RM500 per month, she RM1200 and my brother RM500....
we might not need to shift...
What The Fuck...
Five Hundred? how find?
unless i do full time...
but like this means no need to study?
=,=
that's impossible...

create your own future...
do it before it's too late...

hmm..maybe i should concentrate on my studies?
urgh...but somehow i'm just too lazy...

let me tell you a funny stuff happened today...
during BM period..
teacher asked us question about 'imbuhan di-'
and i manage to answer it...
muahahahaha...
this is not funny =,="
BM is double period...
after answered that question,
we copy notes...and i fell asleep....
it's so miracle that i heard what teacher ask while i was sleeping...LOL
i heard she ask 'apakah beza BARU dan BAHARU'
no one answer...then i heard she said
"mungkin KIM LING boleh jawab"
then she called my name "KIM LING~~"
and i awake...with a blur face...LMAO
she looked away...
then i was like, raised up my hand...LOL
and i answer "BARU-dia BARU siap...
BAHARU-saya membeli baju BAHARU"
then teacher said "betul! tengok! KIM LING tidur pun boleh jawab"
hahahahahaha...what the....

i lost something...)=
*sobs...

i'm no good

i made him angry...
i'm so brainless...
i don't know why i typed that message...
i felt so sorry...
but as you said, sorry no cure...
it's too late to apologize...

Buddies, i'm leaving...

already confirmed that i'll be shifting to JOHOR on NOVEMBER...
yea...THIS november....after PMR...
what else can i do?
i will try to spend as much as i can in society...
do whatever that is possible for me to do...
before i leave...

Buddies, this time i really have to leave...
NOT to HELL but to another place....

i just get to know a really big news...

which i never expected...

this evening my mum told me:

we might be SHIFTING to JOHOR...

i ask: when?

she said:after your exam..next year...

maybe during holidays we will shift there...

What The Hell? Shift to JOHOR?

i don't want!

i don't want to leave IPOH...

i love EVERYONE at IPOH...

especially to those who are important to me...

i can't imagine if one day i have to leave this place...

my tears start dropping, when i think about my friends...

i tell this to the most important person in my heart...

and what i get is the words: good to you=)

i feel more sad...

as if he did not feel anything when i tell him this...

i don't know you are pretending nothing or you really do....

nevermind...nothing i can do with this...

i hope my dad will change his mind of shifting us to johor...

A new template!

Finally, i get a new template for my blog...
XD
comment please...
thank you =D

almost craaazzzyyyy with my schedule....

tomorrow (saturday):
8am -10am >>>>school meeting
10.30am -12pm >>>>maths & science tuition
12.30pm - 2pm >>>>bm tuition
4pm - 12 or 1 am >>>>work


(sunday)
7.30am - 1.30am >>>>casurina hotel (school's function)
4pm - 12pm >>>>work

(monday)
5.30am >>>>wake up go school

at last, i'm all alone...
i'm lose...

我不明白为什么我那么笨。。。
一时，那样东西明明是我的。。。
可是我却拱手让/送给别人。。。
例如：
我明明做到比她好。。。
可是我却把机会让了给她。。。
到最后，受到赞赏的人是她，并不是我。。。

一时，那样东西我很有自信可以做得很好。。。
可是，却没有人给机会我去做。。。
平均来说，我什么都没有做到。。。
废物一个。。。

我为什么要学这样多东西？
学了还要给人骂。。。
我妈， 只是会骂我没用。。。
电脑坏了就找我修理。。。
不会修，就说我蠢。。。
说我浪费钱来学。。。
我是学如何更加专业的用电脑。。。
不是学修电脑。。。
上不到网关我什么事？
打去问TM还好啦。。。
还是说，我真的那么笨？

也许，我太在乎别人对我的眼光。。。
那又如何？
要生存就要看人脸色做人。。。
不然只会讨人厌。。。
可是，我也不是常常看人脸色。。。
要看我爽不爽你。。。
我不爽你，你叫我做东西我会叫回你自己做。。。

在学校 ，大部分人都觉得我聪明。。。
可是在外面，我是一个又蠢，又不醒目，有没用的人。。。
我现在才发现，原来学校的生活跟外面的差别很大。。。
<在学校，我最喜欢讲人。。。
看到不爽就会挖苦那个人。。。
我只是直话直说。。（也就是说讲话不经大脑）
但是在外面，只有人家讲我。。。
我讲错一句话，就会给人骂到很惨。。。（我妈）

咳～

haiz...
results came out...
just like shit...
last time i used to be a maths genius...
now? maths NOOB?
how can i get grade B?
shit shit shit....
but i didn't cry...
it's funny...i don't know why...
i think after parents/report card day my mum sure shit me like hell...

examples:
today onwards no handphone!
you can't use the computer!
you can't watch tv!
you are not allowed to stayback!
such things~

last time my results are 70++ until 80++
now is 60++ until 70++
shit!

can i get full A for PMR?
started to lose my confidence...

i'm so fucking fed up with her voice!
scold scold scold!
she don't care about my feelings when she scolds!
she don't even fucking know the truth behind all these fucking stuffs!
why don't she kills me straightaway?!
instead of making me cry everytime!
*sobs~

All these had changed...

我不知道我想怎样！
哈哈哈哈哈......
有病 =,=|||

last night crazy...
i don't know what i bulled shit on my blog...LOL
don't take it TOO SERIOUS...
but you have to take it SERIOUS TOO...
i'm not joking...XD

having problem with my Microsoft Office Words 2007...
T.T~
how could i finish up my project without YOU?
arh~

Just imagine>>>
If tomorrow you wake up,
you saw/heard a news:
Koh Kim Ling is dead...
what's your response?

cry, sad, or non of your business?

example: one of your friend just leave you today...
what will you feel?
supposing he/she is the one you hate?
will you cry for him/her?

one just don't know how to cherish each other...
until the people around you is gone,
only you regret, realize how important they are...

try to imagine and think deeply>>>
example: you very hate XXX...
and XXX just dead two hours ago...
will you still hate XXX?
the answer is NO...(maybe your answer is different)
at that particular moment, at hatred are disappeared...
since he/she is gone...
think wisely , why can't you just forgive him/her from the start?
why must you put down all resentment at the last moment...
supposing the one who dead is not XXX...it's YOU
are you going to bring all these hatred to hell? or heaven?

another example:
someone treat you very good...
or someone actually sacrifices a lot for you..
but you didn't cherish him/her...
one day, he/she is gone...
and you started to miss him/her...
you regret, and think...
why don't you concern more on him/her from the beginning?
why until that particular moment only you care about him/her?

i don't really feel happy for my current life...
the life of being ignored...
feeling so alone...

besides that,
i hate 'fakers'
those who only knows how to say it out but can't do it...
especially to those who cheat me...

no one i can truly trust...

currently at singapore...
not in mood...
argued...

tomorrow last day of exam...
WORK FOR IT!!
(talk only)

i performed like SHIT in my maths papers...
paper 2...forget formula...
working not complete...TT
i thought can score in paper 1...
but....................
paper 1 more SHIT....
wrong 4 questions....SILLY mistakes!!!
Oh My Gosh...feeling to break the table...LOL
hope still can score above 90....
(this subject is my only hope to score high marks)
other papers...not so much confidence...LOL
since i'm such a STUPID...=P

ok...i get my results for MARCH monthly test yesterday...
not bad...number 7...top 10...
but i wasn't happy with that...LOL
because at 1st i'm getting number 6...
don't know why changed to number 7...
nevermind, it doesn't matter...
'cause my results improved, compare with last year OCTOBER test...
which is number 14...

got to go...
*being forced by mum*
(starring at me)

she's backed...T.T

Mum went Johor...
Freedom occurs....
XD

internet explorer got problem?
when i use that browser evreything mixed up in my blog....
when i use mozilla firefox, evreything is neat...

sorry, i was so wrong...

finally get a chance to online...
FOR A WHILE...LOL
i wanna uploads photos...TT...
not enough time...
nvm...wait next chance...XD

mum don't let me online...
*sobs~
='(

i'm not being sacked YET

LOL...

quite happy...still haven't lost my job...

but even if i lost i still can manage to get another job...

teach taekwondo...LOL

finished blogging at 2.21pm...