Silly

你整天说我傻瓜。其实最傻的是你。
你怕以后离开了我会让我更伤心？
那你又懂不懂其实我一早就知道你有一天会离开我？
我早就有那个心理准备了。只是没想过会是现在。

I never expect that this relation will last forever.
But it's not even one year. And you're leaving me now.
I just want to appreciate the moment with you now.
Why don't you understand that? Never mind.
I can't force you to be with me. I will wait for you.
Until you change your mind. (Although you might not)
Don't always worry that you'll affect me too much.
If you really think so, just tell me the truth.
Just say you want me to concentrate on study next year.
Just tell me what you're thinking. I will know what to do.
Just like what we did for our end year test.
At least i didn't feel sad even that time we didn't chat for a month.
Don't always hide things from me. You know i hate that.
We can actually talk nicely. Why must you take this step?
Only making both of us suffer.

无法控制的泪水。

我很讨厌被蒙在鼓里的感觉。
但是为什么偏偏是你 ='(
我真的很伤心。

你曾经是我最好的朋友。当时我们都什么告诉对方。
虽然现在你不是我的朋友，但你现在对我来说是比好朋友更重要的人了。

你曾说过：我们之间不要有秘密。

你还记得这句话吗？也许你忘了吧。

我却一直傻傻的记住。所以我什么事都告诉你。

但是当我问你某些事情的时候你却瞒着我。

你说你不想让我担心。我知道。

但是我情愿担心也不愿意什么都不知道。

你觉得这样我很好受吗？

更可笑的是你居然custom你的facebook状态，不让我读。

我真笨，刚才还傻傻的去跟你说我的profile好像有问题。读不到你的状态。

你还跟我说：Lol. Nvm,
过后我知道真相的时候我真的很难过。

我对你太失望了！

你是我最信任的人。可是你居然这样对我。

我觉得我自己真可笑！

我现在很无奈。我真的不知道你在想什么。

我不想在你身边呆着的时候对你抱有怀疑的心情。

我现在真的很伤心。

唉。。。

很久没来这里了 怎么一来就想哭 哈哈

也许是因为想起以前的事情吧。 我真傻 =)

最近发生好多事情。 我一个好朋友突然间玩失踪。 在这么重要的时刻。全部人都联络不到她。

其实我很担心她是不是出了什么事。 不过其他人只是在怪责她。 说她不负责任。 真的是这样吗？ 唉。。。只有她家人才知道事实。 没事就好。

好累。。假期好无聊。 明年就要 SPM 了。 今年的成绩也不是很好。

原本打算趁着假期好好温习的。可是我并没有做到。天天都在浪费时间。日子一天一天的过。

我该如何是好？ =(

好想念他。

Backed.

Abandoned my blog for a long while.
I'm backed. Haha. But will not stay long (might abandon again).
These days quite a lot of things happened.
*skip some parts.

Last saturday was my school co-co day.
And the 1 Murid 1 Sukan thing.
Won the Duet karaoke competition in my school with Divaa.
The prize was a bouquet of roses and a trophy.
LOL. After that, 3pm got K Box K King audition.
bring along my flowers there.
People keep staring at me (as if they never see people get flowers)

Knew some friends throughout the audition.
My result for audition was "WAIT FOR CONSIDERATION"
Haha. Kinda worry. I don't wanna wait for their phone call.
I went for audition again the next day. And finally i make it.
Passed. Top 50.
There are many up coming activities for this competition.
They say i have to go record a singing video at k box.
Then they will put on facebook and youtube. =(
23rd July 7.30pm got promo tour at SJKC Yuk Choy.
Have to sell 10 tickets. Haih. Who wants to go lah?==
Even myself don't know can attend or not.
But the staff say this event very important must go.
But at the same time i got a performance that night at another place.
So annoying. And stressed.
Then now onwards have to practice singing la. Bla bla.

Have to prepare for enrollment test and Form 5's farewell party also.
Haven't even start studying for my history.
Later i fail again.
The twilight book i borrowed from Peyee also don't have time to read yet.
Hmmm...What esle....

Tomorrow is parent's day. Haha.
Actually many people feel so worry about this day that they hope this day will never come.
I don't know why? LOL.
If you behave well during class and worked hard for your exam, even if your results dropped also nevermind.
Cause you know you tried your best.
I'm not very good also. Always sleep in class. LOL.
But i think this is not a problem for me. Haha.
She want to tell then tell. I can't do anything.
And i can't promise her "no next time"
Sleepy means sleepy.

Planned for a movie tomorrow after taking report card.
Transformer 3. But my god sis can't make it. ='(
Maybe i have to watch with my mum? Haha

Haven't prepare for my Oral test too.
Tomorrow morning English double period.
Hope she's busy and don't enter class or maybe forget about it. LOL

Haih.
I feel stressed and annoyed.
I don't know why am i wasting my time on facebook everyday.
Instead, i should do something more important.
Hope there's a way to make myself not so addicted on facebook.

Stress

Things are so stress and i feel like crying everyday.
Of course, no one would know about this.
I wish that someone could lend me a shouler to cry on.
But no one would bother or even care.

I really can't stand those people that fooling around everyday.
They don't know the importance of THIS and the importance of THAT.
From my point of view, they're just doing something stupid that are wasting their time everyday. Not only wasting time but also making their life worse.
I really don't know why some people are so happy showing off their failed results everywhere.
You think it's a proud of getting failed?
HAHAHA. =__=
Good. Continue to fail. Congratulations.
Some people are working so hard for their life.
Though they failed something, they still want to success on it.
And YOU people, what are you doing?
Wandering around? Trapped in love? Or whatsoever reasons?
Okay. I don't mean that you can't fall in love.
But those give up on study because of love are seriously idiot.
So you think LOVE is your future? LOL...
And some people just thinking how to play truant everyday.
What you get for playing truant? Sahsiah A? LOL!
Please use your brain and think deeply what should you do now and what you shouldn't.

=)

Saw this somewhere.
Wanted to share it =)

I remember
the first time we meet

I knew that you were made for me
but it's been agreed no men for me

No matter how sweet
they might be

Whenever i think about
being with you

My conscience disagrees
my promise I would like to keep

Even though i know
we're destined to be

Just afraid that
i'm in love too deep

Don't want to fall in love this easily
trying not to let myself get too close

Else my companions
will judge me guilty

Just afraid my love for you's too deep
my heart's flown to you with ecstasy

Perhaps one day
I cannot hold back

'Cuz sweetheart
you're my destiny

Holidays.

Finally the monthly test is over.

Holidays started.

But my holidays full of activities.

The whole holidays is activities.

Holidays? Is it really a holidays?

THIS IS MY ORIGINAL SCHEDULE:

12th Saturday>>

8am-5pm (wisma) course

1pm-2.30pm (BI tuition)

13th Sunday>>
8am-10am (wisma) marching training.

10am-12pm (re2) computer lesson maybe? i think i'm gonna skip it again.

12pm-3pm (my avenue) dance practise

14th Monday>>
9am-3.30pm (wisma) practise

5pm-6.30pm (biology tuition)

15th Tuesday>>
8am-10am (school) olahraga training

5.30pm-9.30pm (Physics & Chemistry tuition)

16th Wednesday>>
9am-3.30pm (wisma) practise

8.15am-10.30am (school) netball practise

17th Thursday>>
8am-10am (school) olahraga training

8.15am-10.30am (school) netball practise

2.30pm-5.30pm (BM tuition)

18th Friday>>
9am-3.30pm (wisma) practise

8.15am-10.30am (school) netball practise

7pm-8.30pm (Account tuition)

19th Saturday>>
(wisma) Competition

8am-10am (school) olahraga training

20th Sunday>>
(wisma) Competition part 2
10am-12pm (re2) computer lesson

12pm-3pm (my avenue) dance practise


Can i divide myself into 5? LOL

But i'm forced to absent most of them.

Reason 1. Time crashing.

Reason 2. I'm going back to johor from 15th-18th. Main purpose--visiting grandfather's grave =(

1st march

Backed to my blog after few weeks.

Sigh.

I feel so exhausted. So many things happened these few days.

Many thoughts in my mind.

Feel so annoying and stress.

I don't know who to share with. Blog isn't a good place to share everything.

Comes back to this quote: Trust no one. Lie to everyone.

Finally sports day ended.

This year don't really have a good achievement.

Last year got 2 golds 1 silver. This year 1 gold 2 bronzes.

Whatever. Didn't really care about it. LOL

And the marching. Just like what i expected, we got nothing.

I feel speechless on it. They seems so sad when the results is announced.

I have no feeling. Because i'm cold blooded? LOL. I don't know. Just not feeling to cry for it. Should accept the fact. Crying doesn't make sense after you lose.

Here the case come, starting blaming this and that.

It is ought to be done, if you can't do it don't blame others. Blame your own self please.

This is what i think.

Okay. After sports day, we have the courses at wisma.As usual lo. Course then exam.
Haih. The bandaging test yesterday was sucks.
So random. Without marking names how they make sure who did the right one and who did the wrong one? ==

Today during netball practice was a little bad luck.
I join the match a little late 'cause i went for my lunch.
Didn't do any stretching then straightaway join match.
1st game jau pk. Then injured my fingers. Don't know who bang on me. ==

After practice then went home. Took shower then cycled to tuition.
Finished at tuition 6.30pm. Started to watch animate after i reached home.
What else to do? LOL. I've got a lot of things to say actually.
But...sigh. Nevermind la. Don't wanna talk already.
Bye Bye.

...

Why so many people secured their bogs? =.=

I'm Sick =(

Fall sick right after holidays.
4 continuous days. =(
Flu + coughing.
I'm planning not to go school tomorrow.


* i don't want to talk to you bastards.

30th January.

Blogger is getting boring.
Created a tumblr account.
But i don't know how to customize it. LOL

These days, ermm.
Don't know what to say actually.
Chinese New Year soon.
Some of their CNY cards are not given out yet. Haha
Last year gave out 20 or 30 cards.
This year bought 50 cards. (something wrong with me. LOL)
Left around 7 or 8 cards not yet give out.
Actually, giving out a card might be better than a simple wish. (i think)

These days quite tired.
Too many things to do.
Soon, there'll be a 5 continuous days of performances.
Ha-ha-ha. Hope i won't be nervous nor making any mistakes.

I really have no idea what to do right now.
What do you mean?
Shouldn't you explain it?
Many question marks in my mind.

=\

i have a bad feeling where something serious is happening tomorrow.

2.20am

I'm so tired.
Just finished preparing the papers for tomorrow's history presentation.
Used me almost 3 hours to draw it. Haha.
Hope it will be success. =)

Finally i get to enter 4 Kekwa (science + account). LOL
But i'm not as happy as i expected.
I heard some people 'wah~~' when my name was called to Kekwa. Hahaha
Gonna start lessons soon =D
Mum is going Singapore from Friday to Sunday.
You will be missed =)
These 3 days are out of transport.
I think i'm not going to headquarter this Saturday. LOL

3rd day

Perhaps tomorrow can know what class i'm getting..
Today blue house meeting, got one post. Kinda happy =)
Asst. Secretary, though i don't really like secretary job. LOL
Next week gonna start house meeting/practise.
Sports day on 26th February. sigh. so fast =(
Next saturday got work.
Need to prepare 20 fast songs and dancing by that day.
I feel like dooming. == Can i quit it?
Arrhh~ So stressful

4th January 2011

It's the 2nd day of schooling.
The orientation was boring.
Was sleeping in the hall for 2 days.
Lastly, still made up my mind to take 4 Kekwa (science + account)
Can i handle it?
For my future option (accountant), i should actually take art class.
The art class package is more suitable.
But in the package got Ekonomi Asas and English Literature.
Sigh. Whatever.
I would rather take Science in stead of these =.=
There's no point for me to study those subjects which i dislike.

So i'll be taking these for SPM:

1.BM
2.BI
3.AM
4.MM
5.PM
6.SEJARAH
7.ACCOUNT
8.PHYSICS
9.CHEMISTRY
10.BIOLOGY

New Year

Happiest New Year's gift ever. =)
Thanks god, for giving me such a surprise.
My pain has gone.