Pictures

The most natural, without any thing on my face =)

(This picture 'hak sei yan' LOL)

Yesterday went Oscar Studio to take photos...
It's a wedding package..
Why i suddenly go take?
'Cause got one aunty introduce and say that package got offer now...
At the same time, i take the opportunity to capture some photos for me to submit for a competition organized by Shin Jew Newpaper...
The make up is like...WTF...
Freaking thick...(but can cover my acne)
i like the make up...Quite nice...(but too thick)
This thingy takes me 5 hours ++ until i skipped my tuition class...

Before making up...

How is it?

Different

I have no idea what i'm tryng to do these few days...
The one should be studying is not studying...
I'm doing things that are exrtraordinary...
3 more days to trial but i'm here onlining in the middle of the night...
Instead, others are burning the midnight oil...

Somehow, i feel hopeless...
No more energy to survive...
I admit, i became weak...
Don't know since when...
Last time i'm tough...
I'll never tears...
Even if i did, this situation normally just maintain for 10 seconds and below.
But nowadays i can cry for more than an hour...
(Wow, that's so different...LOL)
Sometimes i wish i could suicide.

But in the other hand, i want to success..
I don't want to let people look down on me...
(This is my attitude)
I want everything about me to be perfect...
I try to study hard...
But i can't...
Sometimes i'm looking at the book but things that appear in my mind are totally different and not related to the book...LOL
Could i score flying colours?
No.

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Annoyance

i thought you are, but you're not...
you think i am, but i'm not...
you don't know me...
i don't know you...
in a nut shell, strangers...

(don't ask me what i mean, i don't know)

Mum locked computer...
Less on blogging...

yesterday i took the ICAS paper...
It was extremely difficult....
i 'shooted' around half of the questions...
*note : there's 60 questions...
i'm going to get a D grade....LOL

nothing much to blog...
Trial is coming...
TRIAL = PMR
Actually there's no difference...
When you take trial, as if you're taking PMR too...
(this is my own view)

tomorrow stay back at wisma...
count money...LOL
NEVER LOSE to youth 7...

i just had a freaking nice DINNER at 11pm...
nasi lemak + fry egg+ hot milo...
LOL...it is exactly a BREAKFAST set!
i have no idea whether i'm having dinner or breakfast...
LOL...


tomorrow performing dance for Hari Anugerah...
’Fusion Dance' with my friends...
the costume is like...OMG...

activities that i'm going to attend:

17th July - Hari Anugerah (performance)
18th July - Ipoh International Run (duty)
20th July - ICAS (International Competitions and Assessments for Schools)

2nd August - PMR trial

September - Farewell + Enrollment test

October - PMR

somehow, i wish everything could back to the past...

but, day dreaming is USELESS!

i should work hard for now and future...

conversation between me and my mum...

she: why you always dropped?
me: everyone also dropped...
she: you always find reason...always say EVERYONE ALSO EVERYONE ALSO...why don't you say yourself?
me: oh~
she: how can you like this? you should work hard...
me: en~
she: you see you tuition what? tuition until results dropped...
me: oh~
she: you can't always rely on tuition...
me: yes~
she: if no tuition, then you'll die lo?
me: oh~
she: those people who don't have tuition no need get A lo?
me: en~
she: i don't know why nowadays you'll become like this...
me: oh~
she: if you say everyone dropped, then why people can score better than you?
me: because they're clever...
she: why can't you be clever?
me: ==...
she: (bla bla bla)
me: oh
she: (bla bla bla)
me: en~

to be continued....

watched karate kid...
muahaha...
Oh My God...
i love Dre! LOL
he's so awesome....
perhaps one day i can fight like him...
*Laugh My Ass Off

i did not sleep last night....
was doing slides show for my science presentation....
"the death of stars"
not bad not bad...XD
hopefully my presentation will be success...


my mum asked me to beg my dad so that he will change his mind and let us stay...
i don't know what should i do...haiz

my mum said, if we manage to get a job with my salary RM500 per month, she RM1200 and my brother RM500....
we might not need to shift...
What The Fuck...
Five Hundred? how find?
unless i do full time...
but like this means no need to study?
=,=
that's impossible...

create your own future...
do it before it's too late...

hmm..maybe i should concentrate on my studies?
urgh...but somehow i'm just too lazy...

let me tell you a funny stuff happened today...
during BM period..
teacher asked us question about 'imbuhan di-'
and i manage to answer it...
muahahahaha...
this is not funny =,="
BM is double period...
after answered that question,
we copy notes...and i fell asleep....
it's so miracle that i heard what teacher ask while i was sleeping...LOL
i heard she ask 'apakah beza BARU dan BAHARU'
no one answer...then i heard she said
"mungkin KIM LING boleh jawab"
then she called my name "KIM LING~~"
and i awake...with a blur face...LMAO
she looked away...
then i was like, raised up my hand...LOL
and i answer "BARU-dia BARU siap...
BAHARU-saya membeli baju BAHARU"
then teacher said "betul! tengok! KIM LING tidur pun boleh jawab"
hahahahahaha...what the....

i lost something...)=
*sobs...

i'm no good

i made him angry...
i'm so brainless...
i don't know why i typed that message...
i felt so sorry...
but as you said, sorry no cure...
it's too late to apologize...

Buddies, i'm leaving...

already confirmed that i'll be shifting to JOHOR on NOVEMBER...
yea...THIS november....after PMR...
what else can i do?
i will try to spend as much as i can in society...
do whatever that is possible for me to do...
before i leave...

Buddies, this time i really have to leave...
NOT to HELL but to another place....