i'm so suffer right now...
this morning argued with a friend...
yesterday also argued with her...
are she hating me? i don't know...
i just feel scare...i scare our friendship will lost...
and i cried...or maybe i just think too much...

after i reached home...get scold by mum...
she ask: do you know the dog bite my shoes?
i say i don't know...then she starting to scold...
she said: why didn't you tie her up after you bath it yesterday?
i said : i just forget at once...
then she scold me 'sei fatt wen'
say i'm useless....
i tell her the dog also got bite her plants...
she go see the plants...
when she came back...she hit me...
keep on say i 'useless! fatt wen!'
and i cried again...
i was feeling to suicide this afternoon...

just now...i'm getting more suffer...
thought of my best friend...
are you really betraying me?
i trust on you...
but they are blaming me...
what should i do? am i wrong?
who should i trust? ='(
how good it is, if you never did this before...
i feeling to cry again...

i want someone to talk to...
but my best friends are leaving me one by one...
only choy kei, chin, jae mie and kent that maintain...
winnie? maybe she's my best friend too..
but sometimes i used to dislike her...SORRY winnie..
there's another one...but he has disappeared for few weeks...
maybe he has got his new life...

should stop here now...
bye~


*maybe one day i'll really suicide if i continue stress like this






finished blogging at 11.06pm...