i'm no good

i made him angry...
i'm so brainless...
i don't know why i typed that message...
i felt so sorry...
but as you said, sorry no cure...
it's too late to apologize...

Buddies, i'm leaving...

already confirmed that i'll be shifting to JOHOR on NOVEMBER...
yea...THIS november....after PMR...
what else can i do?
i will try to spend as much as i can in society...
do whatever that is possible for me to do...
before i leave...

Buddies, this time i really have to leave...
NOT to HELL but to another place....

i just get to know a really big news...

which i never expected...

this evening my mum told me:

we might be SHIFTING to JOHOR...

i ask: when?

she said:after your exam..next year...

maybe during holidays we will shift there...

What The Hell? Shift to JOHOR?

i don't want!

i don't want to leave IPOH...

i love EVERYONE at IPOH...

especially to those who are important to me...

i can't imagine if one day i have to leave this place...

my tears start dropping, when i think about my friends...

i tell this to the most important person in my heart...

and what i get is the words: good to you=)

i feel more sad...

as if he did not feel anything when i tell him this...

i don't know you are pretending nothing or you really do....

nevermind...nothing i can do with this...

i hope my dad will change his mind of shifting us to johor...

A new template!

Finally, i get a new template for my blog...
XD
comment please...
thank you =D

almost craaazzzyyyy with my schedule....

tomorrow (saturday):
8am -10am >>>>school meeting
10.30am -12pm >>>>maths & science tuition
12.30pm - 2pm >>>>bm tuition
4pm - 12 or 1 am >>>>work


(sunday)
7.30am - 1.30am >>>>casurina hotel (school's function)
4pm - 12pm >>>>work

(monday)
5.30am >>>>wake up go school

at last, i'm all alone...
i'm lose...

我不明白为什么我那么笨。。。
一时，那样东西明明是我的。。。
可是我却拱手让/送给别人。。。
例如：
我明明做到比她好。。。
可是我却把机会让了给她。。。
到最后，受到赞赏的人是她，并不是我。。。

一时，那样东西我很有自信可以做得很好。。。
可是，却没有人给机会我去做。。。
平均来说，我什么都没有做到。。。
废物一个。。。

我为什么要学这样多东西？
学了还要给人骂。。。
我妈， 只是会骂我没用。。。
电脑坏了就找我修理。。。
不会修，就说我蠢。。。
说我浪费钱来学。。。
我是学如何更加专业的用电脑。。。
不是学修电脑。。。
上不到网关我什么事？
打去问TM还好啦。。。
还是说，我真的那么笨？

也许，我太在乎别人对我的眼光。。。
那又如何？
要生存就要看人脸色做人。。。
不然只会讨人厌。。。
可是，我也不是常常看人脸色。。。
要看我爽不爽你。。。
我不爽你，你叫我做东西我会叫回你自己做。。。

在学校 ，大部分人都觉得我聪明。。。
可是在外面，我是一个又蠢，又不醒目，有没用的人。。。
我现在才发现，原来学校的生活跟外面的差别很大。。。
<在学校，我最喜欢讲人。。。
看到不爽就会挖苦那个人。。。
我只是直话直说。。（也就是说讲话不经大脑）
但是在外面，只有人家讲我。。。
我讲错一句话，就会给人骂到很惨。。。（我妈）

咳～

haiz...
results came out...
just like shit...
last time i used to be a maths genius...
now? maths NOOB?
how can i get grade B?
shit shit shit....
but i didn't cry...
it's funny...i don't know why...
i think after parents/report card day my mum sure shit me like hell...

examples:
today onwards no handphone!
you can't use the computer!
you can't watch tv!
you are not allowed to stayback!
such things~

last time my results are 70++ until 80++
now is 60++ until 70++
shit!

can i get full A for PMR?
started to lose my confidence...

i'm so fucking fed up with her voice!
scold scold scold!
she don't care about my feelings when she scolds!
she don't even fucking know the truth behind all these fucking stuffs!
why don't she kills me straightaway?!
instead of making me cry everytime!
*sobs~

All these had changed...