nervous

today get my enrolment theory test paper...
gt improve...but only improve 7marks...from 49%~56%
should i happy??coz some of them dropped...
improve 7marks can help me pass???i dun think so...
i wished i could pass...coz i really worked hard on it...
tmr can get the overall results...i'm nervous~

boring...

me~with a boring face


this morning computer lesson...

omg...27th September got exam...
they got a function(dunno wat)...
call each student to gv 5 frens name n phone number(can get 1 sun cop=4 stars cop)...i wrote 20 names...lol~crazy...
3.30pm taekwondo class...happy^^
today learn stick...lol...quite difficult...
i hit my head...wth...pain~hahaXD...
went back home at 4.45pm...
today i heard my neighbour said something...
lol...the way she talk was so funny...
my dogs keep on barking thn very noisy...
my neighbour say to my dog: u crazy ah??
when i heard this i can't stop laughing...hahaXD

today damn boring...dunno wat to do with...
tmr hv to hand in PJ folio...lol~
at 1st plan to finish it today...but nw lazy...zzz


juz finish my computer class homework...lol...
took me half an hour to finish this whole thing...
p/s: i'm not making love letter...

retake

today retake theory test....
study the whole night(didn't slp)...
i drank a cup of coffee in the midnight...sum ppl say drink coffee can hv more spirit...really??but i hate the taste of it...
in the morning before go sch, i drank again a cup of coffee(so that i won't slp during the test)...hahaXD...i feel like wanna vomit with the coffee...that time my stomach was so empty...my gosh...hungry~
although didn't slp to study, but still can't recognize all the parts...
this time theory is harder than last time...
i feel so nervous when answering the questions...
my mind almost blank...
the essay hv to write more than 200words...omg...i don't really rmb the notes n i hv not enough time to finish it...
times up~~test finish at 11am...
my paper still got a few questions were blanked...
TT...hope this time won't fail...
if failed, i really don't know what else i can do...

today went parade with carson...
he looks different from his photo...
nearly can't recognize him...he's so black...lol
saw kae chyn at imax...he recognize wrong ppl...==|||
at parade was quite boring...went back at 2pm...
3.30pm taekwondo class...i love it...
break at 4.45pm continue 2nd class at 5pm...
only me n my brother were present...==|||
played UNO cards with the teachers...hahaXD
it's a kind of weird bcoz i went taekwondo class but play UNO...lol...last sunday also like this...
tmr's morning computer class...not yet do homework~lol





haiz...i made him cried i guess...
what can i do for him??

have to work hard...

look at my eyes...what do you feel?

tmr is theory test for enrolment...
have to work hard...
these days rushing for sejarah folio...
can't really study for it...
y can't the test be on next saturday?? TT
tonight hv to study until very late...
haiz...

Failure Me...Useless Me...

i get number 16th in the whole class...wth...
disappointed with my results...
last time i was number 6th in the whole class...
i can't accept this fact...
after i saw the results paper...tears almost drop out from my eyes...
i wanna cry but i dun wanna cry in school...
finally when reached home i cried...
y am i so useless??? y am i so failure???
how can i get this kind of results??
i dunno how to face my parents...i make them disappointed...
i not even dare to tell them my results...haiz...
i feel stress...what can i do???
i wanna cry now...=(

=|

today wore my bsmm uniform...
din touch it for months..lol...still can fit in...
this saturday retake enrolment..TT
8am~11am...can i catch up before that??
i feel stress...vry vry stress...
1st...my sejarah folio...haiz...how to do??hand in friday...
2nd...retake theory...haiz...how to read??exam saturday...
3rd...results...haiz...will i drop out of top 10??i'm so scare...
at home...two stupid made me cried...(my fren n my brother)
they dunno what they did huh??finally my fren apologize to me...
but my brother...(i'm gonna slap him next time)...
no respect at all...dunno which teacher so useless teach him moral...teach until like this...
tuition time...crazy...bought lot of junk foods n eat(coz that time too moody)...until now(10 setember 09)oso not yet finish...lol
when backed home start my sejarah report...um...how to do??swt...
i can't even start anything...
later on asked sin pei how to do...she say:(so easy, i help u la)...n now only did a few parts of the report(i think so)...SWT...
chatted a while on msn n now blogging...(4.25am)
gonna sleep...bye^^



should i love him??

yeah...

1st news...i failed my enrolment test...oh yea...==|||

2nd...this saturday can retake...but different paper...TT
3rd...yesterday i wrote:"anyone would lend me to copy her folio"...n today cheryl borrowed me to photostat her sumber...i love you^^...hahaXD
4th...my bus mate make me angry thn i throw small piece of paper towards him n it goes inside his mouth...hahaXD...
today's mood quite happy...dunno y...lol
going to wear my bsmm uniform tmr...
din wear for few months...lol...
dunno still can fit in or not...i'm fatting...
every night eating supper...hahaXD
he told me breakfast is the most important meal in a day n i'm doing the opposite...supper is the most important meal in a day for me...lolXD


smileys on my legs...
omg i'm fat!!


captured this morning

hee^^

today no school...good...^^
this morning woke up at 10am...
after half an hour went out for breakfast...
then go parade with family n my aunt...TT
i wished to go with my frens...but my mum dun let...
today saw bernard with his beloved football...lol...
we chatted a while in popular...=)
i so scare my mum saw him n ask me who is him...
whatever...bought a sejarah reference book...
actually i dunno whether i will read it or not...hahaXD
but my sejarah is weak...have to buy...lol
once i reached ground floor got a promoter straight away come forward me n talk talk talk non-stop...
i stucked thr n i was like:huh??what for u tell me this??i'm only 14 n my mum is in front n listening ur frens promoting...
after she 'bla' finish she ask me want or not n i said: "my mum is in front thr..." hahaXD
today no tuition...yeah^^went night market...
actually quite boring...my mum dun let me buy things...TT
she only bought me a cup of drink n two types of food...
tmr school again...my sejarah folio dunno how to do...
i'm going to die soon...TT...anyone would lend me his/her folio for me to copy??LOLXD...today quite happy...


parade wearing...

T_T

life is bored...is it??no...it's meaningful

but i don't know what should i do...haiz...
study hard??not my style...for me, life kinda boring...
next year is pmr...n i'm wasting my time...
i feel lazy to study unless i'm interested with that subject...
should i try to be hardworking??i don't know...
i'm worsen...not good anymore...
results dropping...frens lessing...always fight with my mum n bro...
these really make me sad...
sometimes i'll think that what would happen if i die??
anyone would cry for me??or is thr anyone that will be happy??
thinking like this is stupid i know...whatever...

the time is passing every seconds n what i do is...
online,chat with frens,waste time,day dreaming,dating...
in future, will i regret what i did now for not studying hard??
haiz...i don't want to think about this anymore...
coz it will remain like normal n there will be no changes...


after taekwondo...

these days i'm sucks....

today is the enrolment test...
yesterday study until 4am only sleep...
wake up at 6am...
after finished all the things go school...
read read read...
f2's 1st test is marching...good...i love it^^
after that is oral...haiz...a little difficult n i forget all...TT
then continue with bandaging exam...
love this too but i did many things wrong...
reef knot tie wrong...the first two bandaging forget to put padding...TT...padding got 3 marks for each...
the last one is theory test...Oh My Gosh...
this is the most difficult test i had done...
objective quite easy...but subjective...once i opened the page i saw many question marks...lol
the total marks for subjective questions are 60marks together with the essay(20 marks)...my gosh...the part that i not yet memorize they put all in subjective...
all subjective question i don't know...TT
the essay i only wrote around 5 rows...
i know i'm going to fail...but hopefully won't...
i was so worse these days...